[He knew she must be tired, maybe even a little dizzy after giving up so much blood so when she moved to hug him, Zero let her with no complaints. It was the least he could do.]
It doesn't matter what you hide from me Ishtar. [He leans back against the tree, letting her settle on him more comfortably.]
It doesn't change who you are. [He touches his chest, right above where his heart beat.]
The healing process isn't always comfortable. Sometimes, pain is needed to heal larger wounds.
[ It's not like she wants to hide things but there's too much that she has to say. It might hurt him more hearing them, but maybe she could be a bit more open about certain things now. ]
You're too much of a good guy sometimes, you know that? You shouldn't let people push you around like that.
[ She lets go of his neck after hugging him and comfortably situated herself against his chest since it seemed to be a little more comfortable for the slight pain she was still feeling from the bite marks. At least the blood won't rush to her head. ]
I guess that's true. I don't think I've changed all that much. Maybe, we'll talk like this when I don't feel so light headed.
[ She mused after a pause. ]
No kidding. I wish I could just forget the pain and not feel it, but that's kind of ridiculous of a thought.
I'm not who you think I am, Ishtar. Not anymore. The Zero you knew... we're not the same.
[Words meant to distance her from him, yet he curls an arm around her to make her more comfortable as she settled herself on top of him.]
......
[Zero goes quiet after those words, he could feel the warmth radiating off her but it does little to dispel the guilt. She was feeling pain because of him.]
I'm sorry. [His fingers slide into her hair, settling there.] I can't take the pain away.
[He wasn't a Pureblood who could relieve her pain with a simple touch. Zero was made to be a weapon, and weapons left nothing but pain and heartache in their wake. He'd always known that, but never was it so clear as now with Ishtar snuggled into him, tired and in pain because of him.]
Funny, since I don't really care if you're not the same Zero. You're still Zero and that's all I have always cared about. I don't think that will ever change, no matter what kind of stuff you end up saying to me.
[ She mused, while settling herself rather comfortably as his arm rests around her. ]
It's not your fault and I'm not referring to the pain from the bite. If your mind is wrapped around those thoughts, get rid of them. I have never blamed you for anything and I'm not going to start to be honest. I think you have enough pain on your own plate as is.
[ She clarified sternly, and weakly jabbing him in the chest because she knew he might be thinking of stuff like that because Zero was Zero. He could say he changed, but she hadn't seen too much change on his part. He was same old, grumpy, caring and self blaming idiot. Yet, she still cared about him. ]
I mean stuff that hurts more than getting bit and nah, I wouldn't want you to do something like erase my pain anyway. It kind of feels like I'm running away from reality if I did that. That's why, I can think about it but I'm never going to really do it.
I just do and cuz I trust you. You don't have to tell me everything for me to understand that.
[ She's going to laugh at him for that comment. ]
Do I really? I just say what's on my mind. There's nothing to it. You know this. Now stop being an idiot and try to be happy. You deserve it after all.
[The sound of her laughter pulls him from his negative thoughts and rather than linger on them which will only upset her, Zero settles back against the wall he's leaning against.]
Probably. I shouldn't move too much and it's kind of comfortable, safe.
[ She replied. His voice was already slowly drifting from her ears as she was lulled slowly into sleep. Also meaning she's not moving anytime soon. She's way too comfortable right now, sorry. Ishtar kind of made it a bit of a stupid habit to sleep on him a lot. ]
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Date: 2015-11-30 07:25 am (UTC)It doesn't matter what you hide from me Ishtar. [He leans back against the tree, letting her settle on him more comfortably.]
It doesn't change who you are. [He touches his chest, right above where his heart beat.]
The healing process isn't always comfortable. Sometimes, pain is needed to heal larger wounds.
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Date: 2015-12-03 07:18 pm (UTC)You're too much of a good guy sometimes, you know that? You shouldn't let people push you around like that.
[ She lets go of his neck after hugging him and comfortably situated herself against his chest since it seemed to be a little more comfortable for the slight pain she was still feeling from the bite marks. At least the blood won't rush to her head. ]
I guess that's true. I don't think I've changed all that much. Maybe, we'll talk like this when I don't feel so light headed.
[ She mused after a pause. ]
No kidding. I wish I could just forget the pain and not feel it, but that's kind of ridiculous of a thought.
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Date: 2015-12-04 05:34 pm (UTC)I'm not who you think I am, Ishtar. Not anymore. The Zero you knew... we're not the same.
[Words meant to distance her from him, yet he curls an arm around her to make her more comfortable as she settled herself on top of him.]
......
[Zero goes quiet after those words, he could feel the warmth radiating off her but it does little to dispel the guilt. She was feeling pain because of him.]
I'm sorry. [His fingers slide into her hair, settling there.] I can't take the pain away.
[He wasn't a Pureblood who could relieve her pain with a simple touch. Zero was made to be a weapon, and weapons left nothing but pain and heartache in their wake. He'd always known that, but never was it so clear as now with Ishtar snuggled into him, tired and in pain because of him.]
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Date: 2015-12-05 01:48 am (UTC)Funny, since I don't really care if you're not the same Zero. You're still Zero and that's all I have always cared about. I don't think that will ever change, no matter what kind of stuff you end up saying to me.
[ She mused, while settling herself rather comfortably as his arm rests around her. ]
It's not your fault and I'm not referring to the pain from the bite. If your mind is wrapped around those thoughts, get rid of them. I have never blamed you for anything and I'm not going to start to be honest. I think you have enough pain on your own plate as is.
[ She clarified sternly, and weakly jabbing him in the chest because she knew he might be thinking of stuff like that because Zero was Zero. He could say he changed, but she hadn't seen too much change on his part. He was same old, grumpy, caring and self blaming idiot. Yet, she still cared about him. ]
I mean stuff that hurts more than getting bit and nah, I wouldn't want you to do something like erase my pain anyway. It kind of feels like I'm running away from reality if I did that. That's why, I can think about it but I'm never going to really do it.
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Date: 2015-12-05 03:02 am (UTC)You always know what to say....
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Date: 2015-12-05 03:36 am (UTC)[ She's going to laugh at him for that comment. ]
Do I really? I just say what's on my mind. There's nothing to it. You know this. Now stop being an idiot and try to be happy. You deserve it after all.
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Date: 2015-12-05 04:59 am (UTC)[The sound of her laughter pulls him from his negative thoughts and rather than linger on them which will only upset her, Zero settles back against the wall he's leaning against.]
Do you plan on sleeping on me?
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Date: 2015-12-05 05:03 am (UTC)[ She replied. His voice was already slowly drifting from her ears as she was lulled slowly into sleep. Also meaning she's not moving anytime soon. She's way too comfortable right now, sorry. Ishtar kind of made it a bit of a stupid habit to sleep on him a lot. ]
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Date: 2015-12-05 05:09 am (UTC)If you drool on me, you're washing my clothes.
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Date: 2015-12-05 05:12 am (UTC)[ At this point she's probably gone and she doesn't drool for the most part. It's his fault for being so nice. ]
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Date: 2015-12-05 05:25 am (UTC)....
[Zero lets her sleep through the night, staying still beneath her until she regains her strength.]