xroyal_bratx | cerealia inbox: ishtar

[ Ishtar's pretty persistent so she takes a step forward trying to figure out what is wrong with her friends. She doesn't seem to understand why he was behaving like this when a second ago he almost reacts to what she is saying like he normally does. ]

I'm not forcing you if you don't want to talk about it but it looks like you got some things you want to let out and it's on your face. I'm just worried. Why? Well, you're important to me. I wouldn't leave you alone when you're like this.

[ She was firm with her words as she plants herself there waiting for his reply. ]

If I am important to you, then why aren't you listening to what I'm saying? I said that I want to be left alone! If there's somebody here that has to deal with all these robots, it has to be me!

[He said before standing his ground. While he really didn't want to yell at her, Takeru just wanted it to be known that he didn't want Ishtar to be hurt.

If he was going to be fighting against all these robots, he couldn't afford anyone else to be in danger.]

Somebody got to teach them a lesson and I won't take it anymore!

That's exactly why I can't leave you alone because you feel this way. I don't think that you should be left by yourself when you're hurt like this. People can hurt you.

[ She didn't seem to take his words to heart at all. In fact, she finds it better that he's able to freely express his words with her. She didn't want him to hide things from her. ]

I can't let you do that by yourself, sweetie. It's not a one person job and we can figure it out together, ok?

[For a split second, it seemed as of Takeru was willing to take Ishtar's advice. Should she look at him carefully, she could see his expression soften before it quickly turned into anger]

What do you know? How do you know what I'm feeling right now anyway?

[He gave a scowl at her]

[ She really hoped that he did but he stopped again. Why was he hesitating? She wasn't going to do anything to hurt him no matter what he wanted to say or do. she just wanted to protect him and keep him safe if anything. ]

Because, you're not the only person who feels that way. I've been through plenty of things that I can't even describe just like you.

[ Because trying to yell at him isn't going to help anyone so she's going to be calm about it... at least for as long as she can. ]

Don't you hate dealing with things on your own? Don't you ever feel like you want someone to help you out?

[To be honest, Takeru wanted someone to help him out. He just wanted to know that everything would be okay and that he didn't need to worry anymore. It was funny how he always wanted to be a grown up and have people look up to him.

But now? There was a limit to how much he could take. However, getting him to admit such a thing was another problem.]

...Why do you want to know? How do I know that you care and that you're not going to leave me behind?

[He didn't mean to let that split out but some wounds just never heal. After his parent's separation, he couldn't deny that he was afraid.

He didn't want people to leave him, he has more than enough of his fair share of that.

And it was only a matter of time before he was going to explode]

[ Admitting he needs support is hard and Ishtar understands that since in her own way, Ishtar was the same. She didn't want to admit that she needed help from others. She felt that it was easier to handle things by herself but look where it actually took her? It took here nowhere and she was still stuck finding a way out. ]

Because I care about you. There isn't anything else I can say about the matter. I'll never by my own choice leave you behind. If I can help it I will protect you in any way I can.

[ She was firm with her reply as he asked her those questions. She didn't want to promise she'll never leave him because the world could take her away any time it wanted but she wasn't lying whens he said she would stay with him for as long as she could willingly. They'd have to drag her kicking and screaming if they wanted to keep her away from it. ]

[By her own choice huh? That was the thing that he feared the most. He never knew just when people were leaving and even if he did, did he have much say in the matter? It wasn't as if he had that much power when his brother or Leia left. And it just hurt knowing so many people he cares about just...disappearing from him.

How can he handle that?]

...How though? How will you do that?

[Because how can you protect someone when you know that you could be gone at any second? It wasn't as if Takeru wanted to leave his friends behind the first time around. As much as he wanted to protect people, he just didn't know how]

[ Those things are hard to control, especially when the world that takes them in has absolute power. Ishtar didn't like it when the people she cared about started leaving either. It was a hard thing to adjust to and accept, given that she's unable to count the number of disappeared people on her fingers. It just meant that there were too many of them to count. ]

Doesn't matter if I can physically do it or not. I'll always try to leave something for you. I'm not a great fighter or anything but I have things I know that can help you when I'm gone... if that day ever comes. I hope it doesn't.

[ Honestly, there are so many ways that she wanted to protect people and it didn't always work out the way she wants it to of course but she didn't know what was the right way to answer this question, though. ]

[Even without the influence of what was going on, it was still a hard concept for Takeru to understand. Just knowing that people could come and go so easily was hard enough but knowing that people he cared about could just...disappear?

Just thinking about it was enough to grit his teeth a little]

...But I don't want anyone to go. I hate this place, I just hate it so much...

[If she listened carefully, she might be able to hear the faint sounds of him crying a little]

[ Ishtar understand since she's been in his position so many times. He's also much younger so it's a lot harder for him to accept these kinds of cruel things. She can't blame him for wanting to reject them. She can't imagine how horrible it is for a boy to watch his friends and family leave him behind. ]

I know sweetie. I hate it too. I don't want anyone to leave or anyone being hurt.

[ She could hear it, and she's going throw her arms around him and hug him if he allows it. ]

[This time, Takeru didn't say anything. Instead, he found himself slowly crying even more. With Ishtar's arms around him, that's when he started to choke on a sob.

He just didn't want to be alone, he just can't even stand the mere thought of it. As he wrapped his arms around her, that's when he couldn't take it anymore.

From there, that's when he started crying]

[ Ishtar enclosed her arms around him a bit more, tightening her grasp on the not so small boy. She understood how he felt without having to ask him. She had experienced it all and there was nothing she could say to change or fix how he felt. He was allowed and should be allowed to feel the way he did. It was a scary experience either way.

Her hand gently pats him on the head and slowly on his back-- small gentle warming pats. She rested her chin on top of his head as he started to cry ]

It's alright, Takeru, I'll be here. I'll be here for as long as you need. So please.

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Sorry about the late response!

I'm even worse so don't worry!~ :D

Yay lateness!

this isn't too late though~

It totally is, how dare you :|

I'm getting better though see one day! so needy! XD

What can I say? I'm a primadonna

you're better when you aren't a primadonna tho :<

TOO BAD

weehhhhhhh and I'm like four weeks late. sdkghds