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[ Ishtar stared at him for a moment. No one said anything like that. ]

That's not what I meant and you know it. You're the last person that would do that to me and even then I'm pretty sure you wouldn't.

[ She shook her head. Maybe the way she said it sounded off? Either way, it didn't seem to stop her much from retorting. ]

Edited 2015-09-21 00:33 (UTC)

Then what did you mean?

[He's lounging against a wall, looking casual even if his words and eyes are nothing of the sort.]

You keep thanking me for petty things like I'm some stranger you need to thank at every turn.

No one said that and since when did thanking you become a problem?

[ Since, well Ishtar's always been saying it as long as she remembered, but maybe the tone of it or the way it was delivered was odd? She didn't think so.

Ishtar sighed. ]

Who said you were a stranger anyway? If that was the case, we wouldn't be here talking right and you wouldn't be worried out of your mind about me and I-- well-- I'm kind of not sure what I'm suppose to say anymore.

[ She paused. That gaze was really troubling. ]

[A look.]

Say the truth.

What do you mean?

[ She replied, keeping her gaze on the ground. ]

What happened to you there?

There?

There where?

[ Ishtar doesn't get what he's trying to ask really. ]

The Research Tower.

[His voice is calm, patient. For now.]

There was a huge amount of magical energy at the bottom floor. They also sprayed some weird sensory gas or something. My sense of touched got screwed up.

[ She replied softly. There's not much to it. ]

[This time, he steps away from the wall.]

Screwed up, how?

I don't think the effects are here at the moment, but was like a while ago, when I couldn't feel anything... like everything was just there.

[ She's not even sure how to explain it, really. ]

You don't think, or you don't know?

[His fingers curl at his sides, his skin whitening at the exerted pressure at that single point. It takes every ounce of self-control to keep him from moving forward to capture her hand and check for himself. But he's here to listen to her, not to take the information like some brute. If he wanted that, he'd just take her blood and be done with it. But Zero would never do that, so he stayed in place, his anger smoldering underneath the surface.]

I can feel everything fine.

[ There's weird glitches every so often, but it probably had to do with something else and not the gas that was released. ]

When you hugged me earlier, it was warm.

[ She explained slowly. Ishtar noticed the whitening of his skin, and the change of his demeanor. She knew him well. He was probably slowly fuming at everything she was saying to him. Even if he chose to jump at her to make sure, she wouldn't stop him. Ishtar wasn't aware of how vampires of his world worked. Even if he chose to act like that as well, she wouldn't stop him. Ishtar was pretty tight lipped about things that she didn't want to be said and maybe it would take some force for her to actually talk. ]

[The anger didn't fade.]

You were gone for three days.

Three days without knowing if you were alive or dead. Or worse.

[His fingers tightened.]

And when you get back, you text me with your pathetic excuse of losing track of time! What kind of moron do you take me for?!

Why?!

Why is your first instinct always to lie to me?!

Edited 2015-09-21 03:55 (UTC)

[ Ishtar is avoiding any form of eye contact with him right now because of how strong his replies were coming at her. She's not sure how she was going to word any of this. What more did he want her to say? ]

Yeah, I didn't want to be gone for three days you know. I didn't have control over that. I know apologizing won't fix anything but I wasn't trying to get myself killed or anything. I'm sorry. I really am. I don't what I'm suppose to do to prove that to you.

[ ... ]

It's not a lie. I didn't know how much time passed! I don't think you're a moron. Don't put words in my mouth!

[ She snapped after he raised his voice Because god knows what happened. She probably died, and thinking about it, she didn't want to tell him that. ]

I'm not lying to you! I really wasn't aware of the time lapse or what happened beyond--

[ She stopped-- the explosion... ]

[Like a dog catching the scent of a lie he instantly pounces on that lapse.]

Beyond what?

[His tone is light and calm, a little too calm.]

[ Damn it. ]

...

[ It's kind of extremely worrisome how calm his voice. She didn't want to add anymore to his sorrow but he kept insisting that she should tell him what happened. ]

The bottom floor got overwhelmed with a lot of magical energy and something else. It exploded.

[ She slowly replied to him. She didn't like that he knew her well sometimes. It made it hard to avoid answering direct questions. If she could avoid the subject, it should be okay, but unfortunately, not when he's demanding things from her and staring her down like that. ]

............

[He was in the Facility too long not to ask the next question.]

Were you there when it exploded?

[He prompts because Ishtar clearly isn't going to answer fully otherwise.]

...

[ Seriously why does he want details?! Ishtar is fighting back the urge to ruffl her hair in frustration. ]

I was there... with two other people.

[ One of them took some of the magical energy and the other was blind... beyond that she couldn't really detail what happened to Jack and Chibi. ]

Edited 2015-09-21 07:36 (UTC)

[He's still.]

Were you hurt?

... I don't know beyond it exploding. I just remember waking up three days later.

[ though, that would deduct that she might have died, but Ishtar didn't really want to blurt that out loud. ]

[Days later.... like in the Facility.]

.......

[He wanted to walk away, to turn around and leave so he could destroy something to vent out the bubbling anger smoldering underneath the surface. She had been killed most likely, and he... he hadn't even know, couldn't have done anything even if he'd known.]

............

[He's silent for a long time, his gaze no longer on her but on the wall behind her. He needed to calm himself, to keep the boiling anger under control before he--]

You died.

[A statement.]

[ This is why she didn't want to say anything to him at all. It would make him this way, and none of this was his fault. He didn't initiate it nor was he there when it happened. He wasn't at fault and she would never blame him for what he couldn't control.

Hell, even if he could control it, she'd rather take the hit for it anyway. Thus, that nature of of Ishtar's selfless and reckless personality. Ishtar pushed her pets away from her, and pulled herself to her feet.

She didn't need to ask him to know what he was thinking right now, especially when his gaze was finally adverted form her. That was by no means a good thing either. She stepped over towards him, giving him a serious look when he stated that fact. ]

Maybe.

[ She replied softly. ] The sensation of dying isn't exactly something I would like to experience.

[ She paused a moment before speaking again, now that she was only a few inches from his person. ]

It's not your fault.

Edited 2015-09-24 01:05 (UTC)

[He stepped forward.]

Is that what you think? That I'm here blaming myself needing to be reassured?

I don't need to be comforted like some five year old.

[ Oh for the love of freaking Phelios! She's not taking his bullshit like this ]

I don't think, I know! Somewhere deep down, you're thinking stuff-- coming up with reasons why it could be your fault and I'm not trying to treat you like a kid. I just don't like to see you in pain, just as much you hate it when I'm in pain.

You understand that don't you? We both should, considering the amount of shit we've been thrown through.

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